If nothing else our marriage was never dull.
In the first 100 days: Jim was arrested 2 times (for disorderly conduct & transporting drugs), lost his license, went to court 4 times, fought (and lost) his uncle over his inheritance & my Dad was on a transplant list (for a lung, he had advanced emphysema).
There was so much going on that I dismissed all the outbursts. All the times the cops showed up because a neighbor called after hearing us arguing, Jim punching a hole in the wall or throwing something at me. When he was mad he called me filthy names. He would become annoyed when I cried, ignore me when I tried to talk to him and pushed me away every time I tried to touch him. I know saying "every time" is a big, dramatic statement, but it is not for dramatic effect: every time in the 6 years we were married he pushed me away when I approached him.
I came home from work & he would explode over something that would leave me in tears, then he would wake me up in the middle of the night wanting to talk. I was exhausted. I was emotionally drained from the stress that was going on in our lives. I knew the date was drawing near for Jim to start his jail sentence and I felt guilty because part of me was looking forward to the break.
But when the man you love is doing time.....so are you.
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Just wondering...what attracted you to him? And...what did your parents think of him?
I fell in love with him loving me. I saw this "diamond in the rough" that with time and patience from me would shine brightly. I saw a man who had been hurt so many times and the love of a good woman would erase that. I loved his energy; his outgoing nature; how he made me feel. My parents were a bit cautious but believed he loved me. The biggest thing against me was that I went too soon...had I given it time, I might have seent he light first.
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