Worth

How often I have felt like I was a dusty, dented, drastically reduced, unwanted item in the clearance bin of life.

This morning my Spirit woke me up to lay on my heart John 3:16. I wondered what I could possibly learn anew from this oft repeated scripture.

I kept stopping at the 4th word..."loved" and laid wide awake (though not bright eyed and bushy tailed) as I tried to figure out why I was thinking of this verse. I've often thought of how Jesus must love me to die on the cross for me but I usually think of God as the Father, the Big Guy who can't bear to be in sins presence i.e. He couldn't bear to be in my presence. He didn't really want me around and somehow I thought Jesus's death made God tolerate me by "cleaning me up enough." I've never really thought about how God so loved the world that He sent His only begotten Son. God so loved me that He sent His only begotten Son. It is not just Jesus who loves me: GOD LOVES ME.! He is not hiding behind a curtain with a terse quip to His Son "you deal with her" as my worried soul thought.

I confess I can't fully wrap my head (or heart) around this amazing truth but I am eager to glance in the mirror and see ..... what God so loved.