I love how God reassures me...
The other day a random conversation brought up painful feelings of being fatherless, unloved & unwanted. After my mom's divorce, she removed my step-father's name from my birth certificate. Although I have been blessed with 2 wonderful step-dad's, every time I have had to see that document I have always felt this sense of being unworthy of a lifelong Dad. It was like my value was diminished with the removal of a father's name.
I struggled with these feelings last night & read several scriptures that I tried to meditate on: Romans 8:16, John 1:12 & 1 John 3:1, which all talk about being children of God. The words didn't seem to penetrate my hurting heart though.
Today I served in nursery and my darling Audrey was in a snuggly mood. For 45 glorious minutes I held her as she fell asleep in my arms. (There is no feeling that is more pure joy than this, I am convinced it will be part of our daily routine when we are in heaven)
Then my Spirit nudged me....and I thought of how God does that with us...we are invited to snuggle into His arms and fall asleep, secure in His love. We don't outgrow His lap; He never says no & I think He has the same feeling of joy holding us as I did Audrey. What Glory to know this! (O, Holy Spirit, remind me of this the next time I feel fatherless)
No matter who is listed on my birth certificate, my Father in heaven has claimed me as His daughter.
"The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children." (Romans 8:16)
Indeed He did.
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